The heart wants what it wants!

 I look in the mirror and see a beautiful girl with almond eyes. Her eyes are watery and fierce, making a thousand promises to never cry. Her beautiful reflection takes her to another time. The time which she has lived. The lane of memories which she is walking is making her falter, yet these memories are what define her. Remembering her mother's embrace, her father's laughter, and her friend's cheers make her smile. Yet behind that mask, the pain of reality makes her question her memories.  

As Shakespeare once said "All the world's a stage", maybe her memory, too, was a story played on a stage with her parents and friends being the actors. She closes her eyes briefly as if to shut the current world, but only finds herself drowning in tears. She keeps her hand on her heart to soothe its pain, only to find it completely shattered. 

She looks on to the past to console herself, only to find people condescending and criticizing. She imagines a hand embracing her and magically taking her pain away. In this beautiful image, she is a mere girl being loved and cared for. Reality hits her suddenly and her eyes open. These eyes see grief, which makes her want to hide as she detests them. She believes that these tears make her an easy target for people to stamp all over her.

She stretches her arm as if to ask help from herself, but only to find betrayal. She is not normal she believes. She is counting the number of people in her life as if counting the number of stars in the sky. These stars are so beautiful that she wants to touch them, but are very far away. This feeling of loneliness is leaving behind invisible scars. It is these scars that she wants people to notice and accept. 

With a snap, she hears another criticism from the outer world "Hey you. How long are you going to put on a show for ?". While putting on a fake smile she composes herself. 

As I start walking towards reality I compare myself to a lonely book on the shelf waiting and wanting to be opened and read by others.